The Saddest Day of My Life

The saddest day of my life
I couldn't believe it. Unreal.
To come home and find out the person that helped give you life is gone
Never to return. Vanished.
Don't know why
Tears. Runny nose. Puffy eyes.
All I can do is cry
Wondering. Why? How?
I can't believe it. Unreal.
Something inside me was wanting
Wanting to kill
Wanting to love
Wanting to forgive
Wanting to be a family again
But all I really wanted was for the hurt to be gone
All I felt was saddness
All I could do was cry
Wanting nothing more than him back
But not anymore
The saddest day of my life
Now the greatest experience of my life